TrUsT?

When should i trust someone?

Now i started to realise not everyone treating you well on the face is really treating you well. It is a real real world outside.

May be there will be a while when i just want to work and get money and then go back home and spend the money.

And, i had a chance to baby sit some children of my colleagues, don't think i am ready for any family like with children in the near future. I need my life first.

Asian society

Now i know why people say dealing with asian people especially chinese is difficult.
It requires a lot of patience and care.

Sometimes I wonder, will rumour stop in the mouth of the people with wisdom? I wish.

Why Do bitches like to bitch around?

I keep having negative question in my mind. I wish i will have an answer soon. God know

~*Sharing is Caring*~

idealistic world

I live in an idealistic world,without knowing
people live on life without basic necessities;
people live without hope, without dream, without the right to ask for more;
How cruel is life, but you still have to live on.

The fear

All of a sudden, i feel like contacting my friends and family members. Looking through my phone book in voipstunt, trying to call each one of them, and the outcome was very dissapointing.

"nombor yang kamu dial tidak dapat di dalam perhikmatan"
"your call cannot be connected at the moment, please try again later"

Did everyone change their phone number? or people lost their phone and change to a new numbers?-- without letting me know..OR something happen to them, i really don't know and yet, there are so little that i can do at the moment.

Then, i thought may be i should call Las vegas or paris, checked their time online, it was 5am in the morning. Aw, i still don't believe this. It is the stress from the pre-graduation works and assignment. Oral exam is coming up, i wish i will perform up to standard, really, can't afford to lose at this point.

Keep my finger crossed.

Transitional stage

I have been hiding in my cocoon for too long, long enough that many of my friends have already become butterly and produce their butterfly families. And, me, i am still hesitating to leave my comfort zone. 25 years of life under the shelter, in the cocoon, or whatever you say it is. No doubt, i haven't got any ability to live on my own at the moment. If there is GOD, tell me what to do, I need some guidance.

Fordyce Granule

Fordyce Granule is Sebaceous gland(sweat gland) on oral mucous membrane (mouth). It is a typical example of a normal object being placed in the wrong place.

How often do we experience this.
Wrong person, right time; right person, wrong time.
Right Illness for slack people to proscratinate from work, but wrong timing;
Right food, wrong appetite;

The imperfection rules? May be

BBQ

My neighbour is having a BBQ party with her sister's childrens. Looking at the smokey flame and listening to the noise of happiness, I realise that I miss home, badly.

生气

友人说， 生气是为了达到一个目的；
盲目的生气，真的一点意义都没有。

HomeCountry@Overseas

Lately, I have been thinking about the initial reasons and consequences of being send overseas for education. Is this a good thing for a kid?

Well, I really do not have a definite answer to this question. Coincidentally, I have come across this article written by Mr 6, which really say something for us

The Article http://mr6.cc/?p=1093

Are we the abandon group? Are we really the happiest group that people at hometown think we are? It is up to your view on this prob.

Ageing

Just had a conversation with a friend about whether we should leave the place that we stayed for 5 years, or shall we leave?

me:"Why do you want to leave?"
X: "Because i can't forsee any changes if i stay back for another 2-5 years in this place..."
me:"I agree, what do you think of moving away from your comfort zone?"
X: " The most difficult thing is for me to start all over again, eg,to introduce myself 100 times to 100 strangers, how tiring.."

I agree so much with what X said. 5 years ago, i will be happily move to any place, happily introduce myself to a total stranger. I can't believe what time has done to me. Now, i feel reluctant to get to know a total stranger, it is just too tiring. Is it just me, or it is the same for everyone else?

Imperfection rules

I used to be very proud of myself to be able to correct other's mistake, especially those on kids. I thought their colouring must be perfectly within the line, their drawing must be decent, and their art production mustn't have any flaws. But after all these years, I realise that it was the imperfections that are making their colouring, drawing and art production valuable.

All in all, beauty is always in the eye of beholder.Now, I learn to appreciate a different kind of beauty.

Just Filling

Now I can say, "pewl, it is just fillings."

I hope i can keep saying that and not, " oh my god, what happen to the fillings."

工作

以前以为工作很重要，很重要；
长大后才知道，工作也只是工作而已。
工作会影响生活，可是生活比工作重要，
所以，要好好生活。

要把对工作的热诚分一半给生活。

不要再说，等明天，因为可能没有明天。

问我为什么喜欢去旅行？

因为我爱看新鲜人，新鲜事，新鲜物，

因为没到过沙漠，不懂沙漠绿洲的珍贵，不知道海市蜃楼是什么景象，不知道水源很难能可贵；

因为没经历过繁忙，不懂的悠闲的意义；

因为没有坐在副飞机师旁的座位，体会不到冲上云宵的快感，看不到云上王国的壮观；

没遇过身经百战的导游，不懂另类人生观，不了解互利互惠的叢林生存之道，

因为没到过荒郊野外，不会珍惜城市的方便；

身处与货车司机必经之地－长途快速公路中间唯一的加油站及餐厅－吃着和货车司机一样的早餐－看清人性；在廖无人烟的地方，要把仅有的人际关系搞好，才不会死于荒郊野外，无人问津；现实生活不也如此吗？

有时候，旅行不单启发新的人生观，也帮助我们重整思想，休息真的是为了走更长远的路。
所以，下一次，去旅行的时候，不要把自己搞的太累，太忙。
不然，旅行的意义就被埋没了。

开心

想通了，开心也有很多定义的凡事不要勉强。

Learning Curve

I used to think that I don't mind the way people look at me;
Since when i begin to care,I don't know, but i care.

It is a shame to say that i don't believe in myself as much as i do before,
I don't believe in my taste, my instinct, my choice.

May be this is the greatest learning curve that i have to overcome at this moment.

Rich?

The lifesytle you have, the amount of money you spend do not usually reflect that amount of money you have. This is so true that it explains why people have credit card debts, loans and mortgage.

So, next time when you see a person who is willing to spend money on something, don't say they are very rich without evidence. It will reflect your level of knowledge, which is certainly not very high. :)

Heartache-the good and the bad

Having gone through many problems, seen some, experience some, I understand more about people. People do everything for a reason, and the reason behind always explain everything.

So, i learn to tolerate, I learn to forgive and I learn to accept.
People always try to cover their story with a mask or behaviour that is totally different to what they perceive they are. Sometimes, it is sad to see people with happy-go-lucky personality on the outside, to have a very sad story on the inside. But i believe that everything happen for a reason. It is a life cycle, you learn from your mistake.

I was asked by a friend today, why should i suffer so much heartache to get real happiness. I answered her with my own belief "IF you have not gone through the bad, you will never realise and appreciate what is good". I am not sure if she is convinced, but i really hope she does, she will be much happier that way.

These days, I started to feel a little moody and blue. Having the thought of graduating and the need to separate from all my friends just make me scared and sad.
But, i belief it is just the fear of change. I will be alright when i adapt to my new life.

知道自己的缺点

如果所有事情都需要科学数据来证明， 那我想找出和我一样有毕业恐惧症的人有什么心理。 几天前， 一些所谓的potential employers 来给我们全班同学说教。 其中有一人说 ＂要别人认识你之前， 你需要认识你自己； 要知道自己的优点－然后把它发挥的淋漓尽致；更要知道自己的缺点，以便自己被自己的缺点打败， 也可借机克服缺点。＂