no pain,no gain

总是隔一段时间,就会有新的烦恼.
人类永远都不会满足于现状, 这是铁一般的事实;
可是我们永远都在骗自己,
说,我很满足于现状,
我一点都不奢求上帝给我其他多余的东西.
说的那一刻可能真的因为某些事而感动,感恩.

可是,想法无时无刻都在转变.
这一刻想的东西好象很容易就会变.
要怎样把我的想法传达给我想传达的人.
更扯的是我自己也不相信自己是那样想的.

一个人的问题都已经很多了,
想到大人们要考虑的事情更多,更烦;
我的问题实在微不足到,
只能不要白白烦恼了.

我以前相信任何事情总有解决的方法,
我现在还是相信的.

想说,no pain no gain 这个道理是真的,
凡事尽力就好了,不要太钻牛角尖,
毕竟人生很短的,明天的事没有人会知道.

黄家的女孩

she shares part of my gene, the good gene that runs in our family, isn't she cute?

原来我有那么多
好朋友,
好学妹,
好学弟,
好老师,
好家人,
好天气,
好地方,
好风景,
上天对我已经很好很好了,
每一次看照片,都觉得很幸福,
太感动了....哈哈...
最近心情太好了...

爱情，不是有空才珍惜！

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Google earth

虽然人生有时候很无奈,
可是如果把烦恼的事情换一个角度来看,
可能会有意外的收获.

打个比喻,我们平时看店面和建筑物都是往上看的,
试试从天上往下看,
你可能要花比你想象中还要久的时间来找出你的所在地.
信不信由你,蛮有趣的.

有兴趣,可以在 google earth 体验这道理.

Depression-yes or no

原谅自己很容易,原谅别人很难;
为什麽总是把自己的缺点缩小,把别人的缺点用显微镜放大;
为什麽要在鸡蛋里挑骨头,鸡蛋里明明只有蛋黄与蛋清;
为什麽要替我的生活制造问题? 问题已经很多了.
为什麽我总是遇见这种人?

不理了,先把学校的麻烦事解决.
忽然间,我觉得我不想说话了.好象也不想见人了.
我是不是得了depression????

讲到这里, 忽然间想起这个星期看的病人,
虽然他们的背景都很可怜,
可是我却觉得他们很烦,
是他们真的很烦,还是我近来累积的人性已经用得七七八八了.
是我有语言障碍吗? 可是之前还是好好的.
为什麽他们总是答非所问,明明是是非题,为什麽要用文章来回答?
真受不了.....

这星期,心情总结有点无奈,有点烦,还好有少许满足感,不然会depress.

莫名的失落感

忽然间,有一股莫名的失落感.
那种感觉好象有亲人要离开我,似曾相识的感觉.
可是连这种离别我也不能习惯的话.
明年毕业后,可能更少机会看见这里的朋友了.
都说是习惯了,还是需要一点点时间来调整吧.

四年了,我好象已经把他们都当成我的家人了.
至少,四年来我的人生都有他们的足迹.
人来人去,天下没有不散之宴席,把握现在吧.
重来没有想过五年的大学生活即将过去.
五年,比别人多了一些吧,我赚到了...
好好过剩下的日子吧.

手写的blog

不烦了

想通了,不再钻牛角尖,
有一些东西,拿得起,要学着放下;
还是老话一句, "凡事都有两面的, 不要太执著于不好的那一面".

这一阵子,想了很多,脑袋都快受不了.
忽然发现,我真的承受不了那麽多的压力,
原来我也只不过是一个普通人.
每天上完课,其实也没剩下几个小时可以活动,
与其烦恼,倒不如做一些有意义的事情.

好!浪费了三个很宝贵的星期,要好好过剩下的仅仅十个星期.
Dentistry 四年级,真的要好好过.
很快就要离开学校,可能我都不会再回到读书的生活,
我会好好珍惜的.
珍惜朋友,生活,病人,家人, 没有他们,我每天可能会过得很没意义. :)

跌倒

跌倒后,可以顺便仰望一下天空,
蓝蓝的天,今天也无限伸朝着我微笑,
跌倒后会站起来就好了.

<一公升的眼泪>

虚线与实线

如果人与人之间有线连接着,
那麽线应该可以是实的也可以是虚的.

为什麽我总觉得和亲人的感觉象虚线,
有时,甚至比不上一个和你没有血缘关系的人.
在医院,和病人聊天,觉得病人告诉我的比家人还要多,
与病人,与朋友的互动好象比亲人多.

好象应该把虚线恢复到实线了.

天使在哪里

我想我这一辈子都不会忘记这一段艰苦的日子.

真希望,
每一天可以有多一点点时间,
每个星期有多一点点钱,
那麽,一切一切就没有问题了,烦恼也不再是烦恼了.

天使在哪里? 告诉我怎做才是对的.
为什麽刚刚开学两个星期就想放假??

是我的,始终是我的

找房子找得很累了...原来要找我喜欢,中意的房子, 而且又正好出租, 屋主又刚好想租给我的, 很难, 真的蛮难的.

我喜欢的都已经住人了, 不喜欢的也好象蛮多人想要的.

算了,与其相信好的都已经被占了,还不如相信是我的,始终是我的.

这样子,我会活得比较快乐.

double 12

Ya, i finally turned 24 yesterday. The were too many candles on the cake. LOL. Eventough you gave me the super unnatural treatment for the entire day and expect me not to notice that. I guess i got to be blind or something. Trust me, i have already try my best to act like i know nothing. LOL. Anyway, i really appreciate your attemp to hold a surprise dinner for my birthday. A kiss for everyone.

Thank you everyone from celebrating my birthday despite all the bad, busy and traumatic incidents that were happening this few weeks. I really really appreciate that, you reassure my existence, LOL. Sound serious hor, but it is true.

Between , i got "MUA CHI" for my birthday, both taiwanese and japanese style mua chi. Yummy... thanks for all the efforts..MUAXS.

Thanks for all the wishes and words. Each one of them mean a lot to me. "xiao bai tu" is not that important compared to the friendships between all of us. LOVE you all.

p/s:
bongie, i won't save anti-wrinkle cream from now on.

L&L sister, you still keep to the tradition, you are just like my "grandma". You are the next person after my grandma who buy me pyjamas. Anyway, i appreciate it, "grandma number 2"

I am thinking too much

Yes, i like to think;
I like to guess and
i like to interpret ..

But, sometimes, a cue is not a cue;
It can only be a coincidence.

LOL, life goes on...

24th birthday

I am getting one year nearer to 30. I started to ask my friend, do i get to stay at 23 if i don't celebrate my birthday? ya, what a stupid question. But, sometimes, you need to be stupid and silly to make your life more relaxing. Heehee, any disagreement?

Well, i guess there is always something in your life that you need to accomplish at different age. I am at this age where i need to be responsible for my own behaviour, relationship and life. And, i think i am still learning on how to deal with people.This is really a life long learning subjects.

What do people do at their 24 yo birthday? i am going to spend my bday in the clinic with my patient. Well, i guess this is GOD's plan. You will never know what you will learn from each person.

I hate when weekend is over and monday is approaching, but i still need to be prepare for monday, I pray for everything that is gonna happen this week and every challenges that GOD has assigned to me.

smoker and the sputum

This morning, we got a referral from other clinic regarding a patient who need a full upper and partial lower denture. It was suppose to be a good new considering the shortage of patient this year.

5 mintues after the referral notice, i heard noises from the corridor in our cubicle. Then, i saw a guy with a ponytail, cowboy outfit with hat and boots.Ok, i know i shouldn't judge a person by appearance. Ok, i knew i was a bad person...But, deep down, i was thinking "this is not going to be an easy character to handle" . True enough, he turned out to be a difficult patient. You know, that kind of patient who grap every second to speak whenever your mirror and probe is not in his mouth. Oh my god, poor operator...( i wan't the operator)

In our conversation, actually part of the history taking process, i found out that he has been smoking for 47 years and 40-50 cigarette per day. Can you imagine the amount of cigarette he had been smoking? I believed
that his lung has turned into black colour, he might have black sputum as well.....ewl.... Well, i made a superficial advice for him to seek Quitline to quit smoking. Okay, stop pretending to be a great person. This was mainly because i didn't want to be a passive smoker and i didn't feel comfortable listening to the sound of smoker clearing their throat. Haha, of course that was also one of my job obligation that somehow coincide with my TRUE intention.

Well, at least i agreed with him that life is short and you do not know what is going to happen next in your life. I guess i will only understand him better if i knew what had happened to his life in the past. He might experience some traumatic incident that made his life extremely painful or totally changed.

Ya, there is always thing that you don't know about people. Sometimes, it is very interesting to find out what different people are thinking. I remember reading from someone else blog quoting a phrase "there is no stranger in this world but there are always friends that you haven't got to know yet." Yes, i couldn't agree more.

Guess what happen to the cowboy fellow in the end... He might ended up somewhere in the special need or the hand of some unlucky student. I would have taken care of him if i really need a patient, i believe that you will always learn something from dealing with different people. In the end, it is all gonna be part of your life.

my greed

As i mentioned in previous post, my desire of wanting to buy "stuffs" is never ending. The list is growing everyday...haha

1)PS II with eye toy- it is so nice if i can have that? :-[, i just come across this PSII that you can have a personal trainer and it estimates the calories that you have used up after you have completed each stage. Isn't it cool? perfect toy now if only i have enough money, i need a part time job.

2) car radio and cd player? really craze for one now. Another reason for which i need to start working soon.

3)New bedsheet and quilt cover- sick of the embroided quilt cover already...

4)more shoes, more clothings, more girl stuff; i still can't understand why girl need endless supply of accessory, clothings and shoes. Why is there always something to buy whenever i shop? That is also when i only have this little time to shop? Girls....Salute.

5)I think i am a very troublesome person, eventhough i need money so urgently, i actually want to choose my work......
- Cibo cafe? Restaurants? Clothing shops? flower shops? Fast food?
- Bear in mind that i have 0% experience of working, i wonder where i will end up in, heehee. Wait for my news.

4th year 1st sem officially end

I started my uni life 3 1/2 years ago, another 1 1/2 year till i leave uni, i thought i was looking forward to it, but i somehow step back when others tell me that working life is terrible. But, i guess i would really like to experient another stage of my life, i would appreciate it even if it is "terrible". Actually, i only want to earn some money,LOL. Enough of "poor" student life, sob sob.

Considering my age, i have been studying for more than 17 years. I have the feeling that exam is endless, it has already become part of my life now, is it good or is it bad? Perhaps, it shows that my adaptation ability is improving after so many years of education, should it be the exam tolerant? Probably, i need something more exciting to stimulate my nerve, haha.

After these years, i started to see my future, i think i only realise what i really want now. It is not a lot of money nor luxurious lifestyle, but easy and comfortable life. But, my definition of comfortable is elevating all the times, endless desires. I am just a normal human being afterall and most human being are motivated to live by greed.

Someday, I told my friend that we are really a bunch of kinda high maintenance people, but we kinda self-maintained, guess for the future too. But in exchange for the self-maintenance fee, we sacrify our time and money. People at our age play hard, enjoy their life to the fullest, though some are suffering with work too. So, i am not complaining, i am just expressing my thought. And, i love my life because i choose to live this way.

Somehow, at some stage of my life, i kinda feel lazy and scared. I just wanna step back and think of what i was doing. It was just so good if my soul can temporarily leave my body so that i can observe my movement and insanity, listen to my own nonsense and know myself better. Is it just me or everyone at some stage has such thought?

Anyway, i am just here to anounce that i have completed 70% of my BDS study, but that is only the study part. My clinical skill ar? probably still have a lot of room for improvement. All the best for everyone's life back in M'sia.

Techinical problem

Dear Techs Support Team:

Last year I upgraded from Girlfriend 5.0 to Wife 1.0 . I soon noticed that the new program began unexpected child-processes that took up a lot of space and valuable resources.

In addition, Wife 1.0 installed itself into all other programs and now monitors all other system activities. Applications such as BachelorNights 10.3 , Cricket 5.0 , BeerWithBuddies 7.5, and Outings 3.6 no longer runs, crashing the system whenever selected. I can't seem to keep Wife 1.0 in the background while attempting to run my favorite applications.
I'm thinking about going back to Girlfriend 5.0 , but the 'uninstall' doesn't work on Wife 1.0 . Please help! Thanks, "A Troubled User"

REPLY: Dear Troubled User: This is a very common problem that people complain about. Many people upgrade from Girlfriend 5.0 to Wife 1.0 , thinking that it is just a Utilities and Entertainment program. Wife 1.0is an OPERATING SYSTEM and is designed by its Creator to run EVERYTHING!!! It is also impossible to delete Wife 1.0 and to return to Girlfriend 5.0 . It is impossible to uninstall, or purge the program files from the system once installed. You cannot go back to Girlfriend 5.0 because Wife 1.0 is designed not to allow this. (Look in your Wife 1.0 Manual under Warnings-Alimony-Child Support) .
I recommend that you keep Wife1.0 and work on improving the environment. I suggest installing the background application "Yes Dear" to alleviate software augmentation. The best course of action is to enter the command C:\APOLOGIZE because ultimately you will have to give the APOLOGIZE command before the system will return to normal anyway.

Wife 1.0is a great program, but it tends to be very high maintenance. Wife 1.0 comes with several support programs, such as Clean 2.5, Sweep 3.0, Cook 1.5 and DoLaundry 4.2 . However, be very careful how you use these programs. Improper use will cause the system to launch the program NagNag 9.5 . Once this happens, the only way to improve the performance of Wife 1.0 is to purchase additional software. I recommend Clothes 2.1 and Jewellery 5.0

WARNING: DO NOT, under any circumstances, install SecretaryWithShortSkirt 3.3 . This application is not supported by Wife 1.0 and will cause irreversible damage to the operating system.Best of luck,Tech Support