abnormal "normalities"

There was time when i was away from family, living outside for the sake of study. Then, i got busy with study, friends and all other activities. 24 hours a day wasn't all that much when you have a lot of tasks to be accomplished. Then, i call home less and less. I used to think that it was okay to take a break from family, because they will always be there for you.

Turn out, i am wrong. Changes occur every seconds. Then, i know i shouldn't take things for granted. Guess i was trying to get away from the problems.

Just realise that all the subtle changes that have taken places to the people and places that used to be familiar to me have accumulated and become a tremendous change. How can i ever miss that?

I realise that i seem to be more and more invisible from their life. I don't really know how to readapt if i were to go back for good. More importantly, my parent are getting older and siblings are getting taller and more mature. And, i wasn't there for them when they need me. Don't know what i can do now, guess i can only go with the flow. Only do what i can right now.

Oh well, it is all about exam associated syndrome again.