The fear

All of a sudden, i feel like contacting my friends and family members. Looking through my phone book in voipstunt, trying to call each one of them, and the outcome was very dissapointing.

"nombor yang kamu dial tidak dapat di dalam perhikmatan"
"your call cannot be connected at the moment, please try again later"

Did everyone change their phone number? or people lost their phone and change to a new numbers?-- without letting me know..OR something happen to them, i really don't know and yet, there are so little that i can do at the moment.

Then, i thought may be i should call Las vegas or paris, checked their time online, it was 5am in the morning. Aw, i still don't believe this. It is the stress from the pre-graduation works and assignment. Oral exam is coming up, i wish i will perform up to standard, really, can't afford to lose at this point.

Keep my finger crossed.

Transitional stage

I have been hiding in my cocoon for too long, long enough that many of my friends have already become butterly and produce their butterfly families. And, me, i am still hesitating to leave my comfort zone. 25 years of life under the shelter, in the cocoon, or whatever you say it is. No doubt, i haven't got any ability to live on my own at the moment. If there is GOD, tell me what to do, I need some guidance.

Fordyce Granule

Fordyce Granule is Sebaceous gland(sweat gland) on oral mucous membrane (mouth). It is a typical example of a normal object being placed in the wrong place.

How often do we experience this.
Wrong person, right time; right person, wrong time.
Right Illness for slack people to proscratinate from work, but wrong timing;
Right food, wrong appetite;

The imperfection rules? May be

BBQ

My neighbour is having a BBQ party with her sister's childrens. Looking at the smokey flame and listening to the noise of happiness, I realise that I miss home, badly.

生气

友人说， 生气是为了达到一个目的；
盲目的生气，真的一点意义都没有。

HomeCountry@Overseas

Lately, I have been thinking about the initial reasons and consequences of being send overseas for education. Is this a good thing for a kid?

Well, I really do not have a definite answer to this question. Coincidentally, I have come across this article written by Mr 6, which really say something for us

The Article http://mr6.cc/?p=1093

Are we the abandon group? Are we really the happiest group that people at hometown think we are? It is up to your view on this prob.

Ageing

Just had a conversation with a friend about whether we should leave the place that we stayed for 5 years, or shall we leave?

me:"Why do you want to leave?"
X: "Because i can't forsee any changes if i stay back for another 2-5 years in this place..."
me:"I agree, what do you think of moving away from your comfort zone?"
X: " The most difficult thing is for me to start all over again, eg,to introduce myself 100 times to 100 strangers, how tiring.."

I agree so much with what X said. 5 years ago, i will be happily move to any place, happily introduce myself to a total stranger. I can't believe what time has done to me. Now, i feel reluctant to get to know a total stranger, it is just too tiring. Is it just me, or it is the same for everyone else?

Imperfection rules

I used to be very proud of myself to be able to correct other's mistake, especially those on kids. I thought their colouring must be perfectly within the line, their drawing must be decent, and their art production mustn't have any flaws. But after all these years, I realise that it was the imperfections that are making their colouring, drawing and art production valuable.

All in all, beauty is always in the eye of beholder.Now, I learn to appreciate a different kind of beauty.

Just Filling

Now I can say, "pewl, it is just fillings."

I hope i can keep saying that and not, " oh my god, what happen to the fillings."

工作

以前以为工作很重要，很重要；
长大后才知道，工作也只是工作而已。
工作会影响生活，可是生活比工作重要，
所以，要好好生活。

要把对工作的热诚分一半给生活。

不要再说，等明天，因为可能没有明天。

问我为什么喜欢去旅行？

因为我爱看新鲜人，新鲜事，新鲜物，

因为没到过沙漠，不懂沙漠绿洲的珍贵，不知道海市蜃楼是什么景象，不知道水源很难能可贵；

因为没经历过繁忙，不懂的悠闲的意义；

因为没有坐在副飞机师旁的座位，体会不到冲上云宵的快感，看不到云上王国的壮观；

没遇过身经百战的导游，不懂另类人生观，不了解互利互惠的叢林生存之道，

因为没到过荒郊野外，不会珍惜城市的方便；

身处与货车司机必经之地－长途快速公路中间唯一的加油站及餐厅－吃着和货车司机一样的早餐－看清人性；在廖无人烟的地方，要把仅有的人际关系搞好，才不会死于荒郊野外，无人问津；现实生活不也如此吗？

有时候，旅行不单启发新的人生观，也帮助我们重整思想，休息真的是为了走更长远的路。
所以，下一次，去旅行的时候，不要把自己搞的太累，太忙。
不然，旅行的意义就被埋没了。

开心

想通了，开心也有很多定义的凡事不要勉强。

Learning Curve

I used to think that I don't mind the way people look at me;
Since when i begin to care,I don't know, but i care.

It is a shame to say that i don't believe in myself as much as i do before,
I don't believe in my taste, my instinct, my choice.

May be this is the greatest learning curve that i have to overcome at this moment.

Rich?

The lifesytle you have, the amount of money you spend do not usually reflect that amount of money you have. This is so true that it explains why people have credit card debts, loans and mortgage.

So, next time when you see a person who is willing to spend money on something, don't say they are very rich without evidence. It will reflect your level of knowledge, which is certainly not very high. :)

Heartache-the good and the bad

Having gone through many problems, seen some, experience some, I understand more about people. People do everything for a reason, and the reason behind always explain everything.

So, i learn to tolerate, I learn to forgive and I learn to accept.
People always try to cover their story with a mask or behaviour that is totally different to what they perceive they are. Sometimes, it is sad to see people with happy-go-lucky personality on the outside, to have a very sad story on the inside. But i believe that everything happen for a reason. It is a life cycle, you learn from your mistake.

I was asked by a friend today, why should i suffer so much heartache to get real happiness. I answered her with my own belief "IF you have not gone through the bad, you will never realise and appreciate what is good". I am not sure if she is convinced, but i really hope she does, she will be much happier that way.

These days, I started to feel a little moody and blue. Having the thought of graduating and the need to separate from all my friends just make me scared and sad.
But, i belief it is just the fear of change. I will be alright when i adapt to my new life.

知道自己的缺点

如果所有事情都需要科学数据来证明， 那我想找出和我一样有毕业恐惧症的人有什么心理。 几天前， 一些所谓的potential employers 来给我们全班同学说教。 其中有一人说 ＂要别人认识你之前， 你需要认识你自己； 要知道自己的优点－然后把它发挥的淋漓尽致；更要知道自己的缺点，以便自己被自己的缺点打败， 也可借机克服缺点。＂

Birthday

It is chasm to leap from 24 to 25.

Being 25,
you can rent a car by paying proprotionately less insurance fee,
you get the license to register as a Dr. ,
you get to earn money,

But,
you have to be more independant,
you have just permitted your hormone to slow down their activity and started to produce wrinkles,
you have to start to live on your own feet now,

but i remember someone at his 60's told me that he doesn't want to go back to his 20's because he was a fool. He said people get wise when they age. In fact, i do agree with him, you have to make enough mistakes to know what is right for you, and how to avoid repeating the mistake.

So, i guess i should learn to appreciate being 25 despite the fear of the undecided and uncertain future.

Happy Birthday.

To my grandfather whom just passed away 3 days ago, I wish you have a peaceful life in heaven.

Revenge

The whole plan sounds like a revenge.

I can no longer differentiate the truth from the false.

Well, you just can't please everyone, live with it.

Murphy's Law

Murphy's Law says "Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time" (Wikipedia)

I am not someone who believe in destiny, fate or etc. However, there is always some day in life that when you started to do something wrong, you will carry on the momentum to do something even worst. I don't have any logical reason for the phenomenon, because you just can't explain the aetiology.

Like what my friend said "I have got a dental mother in school and another fussy mother at home", but both of them do not have any relationship with me. The only thing is they share the common interest-to pick on me.

生不如死

当一个生不如死的人过世的时候，
我们应该欢呼，还是哀悼？

界线

世界越来越大越文明，
医学界的发现，可以吊命的药，等等等等，
人的生命也越来越长，可是人类的生活素质有变好吗？

这是一个很难回答的问题，见人见见仁见智吧。
我就觉的与其增长繁脑的人生，还不如过着有限的快乐人生。

就那那个需要换心脏博动器的病人来说，
她五十岁， 八十公斤， 剩下半张嘴的牙齿，
她还有三天就要动手术，
她每天吃的药有上十种，
她从门诊进来的时候，需要一个看护拿着一个外接心脏博动器，陪着她一起来的。

当我对他说，我会帮你把整嘴的牙齿拔掉，
她留下眼泪了。
请问，这是谁的错？
政府的错吗？因为他们想让人民可以保留他们的牙齿一辈子？
病人的错吗？因为她没有好好照顾身体？
上天的错吗？因为他没有给她一颗健康的心？
我的错吗？因为我要拔她地牙？？

每一天都有我不懂得回答的问题，
工作与情感的界线在哪里？

A learning lesson

谢谢你，大小姐
今天，你教会我很多事情。

１）在问别人的名字的同时，对那一个人说，我一定会忘记你的名字。 请问，你想要什么回应？
－－原来这真的很伤人。

２）在教别人的时候，要用教人的语气；用责备的语气，别人是不会服你的。
－－原来，学生真的不好当。
－－要学会教人才是真正有本事。
－－还没学会当医生前，要学会做人。

３）不好听的话是会影响别人一天的情绪，也只会让人决得你很讨厌。
－－因为真正有本事的人知道这其中的道理，不会随便说会伤害别人的话。要谨慎的说话，要三思而后行，世界就是那末现实。

大小姐， 我会忍的， 再三个星期，我就永远不要与你打交道。 这三星期，你的身份还是在我之上，我还是会对你恭恭敬敬的。 但，请你记得，我不是怕你，我只是不想浪费太多时间在你身上。

LOVE

爱真是一种伟大的东西，
它可以使冷冷清清的屋子变得很温暖，
本来空空如也的冰箱挤满了各式各样的食物，
本来毫无生气的厨房变得五彩缤纷，
本来面貌可挣的一个女人变成满面春风的女人，

不知名的男人，谢谢你；
因为你， 我冬天的早晨有暖气可以享受。
所以，美丽小姐，请满满的享受你的爱，那我的冬天会过得比较好。

"Can you bleach my decay?"

Today, I saw a patient from Somalia, quite a decent lady. But when she smiles, I could easily spot the ongoing rampant caries in her mouth (extensive decay). If you can picture rotten teeth with only zero to 1/3 of the white enamel (outer layer of tooth) left in the mouth when you look into someone's mouth, you may start to wonder what was going on in there?? I wasn't sure and was pretty convinced that she had no intention to tell me too. It took ages (years) for someone to get rotten teeth like this, unless she has had some other hidden agenda which she wasn't likely to reveal anyway.

Well, with the extend of caries described, the only treatment was to extract her teeth, which she had strongly objected even before i touched her. Despite our concern to her general dental health, she opted for aesthetic than relieve of pain.

"Can you put some white filling to cover my black decayed teeth (only the root stump instead)"..........mmmmm, no, i can't do that.

"Or may be you can bleach them?" oh,dear, where did she get this idea of bleaching a decayed tooth, from the internet???

Ok, out of my curiosity, i did some brief reading on somalia

Somali is located on the Horn of Africa in East Africa, It has no recognised central government authority nor any other feature associalted with an established independant state.

Somali has one of the highest child mortality rate in the world. Education system was privatised after the breakdown of the government.

MAY BE these facts explain where she got her bleaching information. I feel so sorry to her. I hope that she got somethings out of the visit and, she will have a better and realistic idea of her condition. BLEACHING is not going to solve your problem, Full immediate denture is your best choice now .

LAZY to brush your teeth?
Can't give up on smoking?
Addicted to Marijuana, "i can't quit"?
I Love Coke and juice, can't live without them. And I brush my teeth after having coke and very low pH juices. I feel clean afterwards.

WELL, BE PREPARE TO SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES. In the very limited year in Dentistry, I haven't heard one individual being perfectly happy with their denture. It is not about the technical side of the denture work but physiologically, they are just substitute, can't be compared to the genuine set of teeth.

Do you still think DENTURE is a resolution to your intended or unintended, neglected mouth?



Do you want to kiss this mouth?



Or this?

如果帮我变成害我，那又何必呢？

原来好心做坏事是这么一回事。
虽然我真的很生气，可是最后， 我有把脾气收回来， 对他强颜欢笑。 想说， 事情都已经发生了， 生气也没用。

我应该气他不了解我的计划？ 还是气我自己没有把计划书写的清清楚楚？ 算了， 气不完。
这就是我的优点与缺点， 气来得快， 去得也快。

Winter

The hardest thing to do in winter is to get out of the bed, and the easiast one is to get in bed.

冷

今年冬天特别冷， 除了冷，我也只能用冷来形容这个季节。
空气是冷的， 地板是冷的，手是冷的， 脚是冷的， 我好冷好冷。。。。。只有食物是热的。 只能说，冬天不是减肥的季节。
你想肥死还是冷死？

我病了-Labyrinthitis

我病了。
莫名其妙的病了？

医生诊断我的病为Labyrinthitis, 是医学界也不知道为什么存在的viral infection。 我现在是一直瞎眼，没有平衡感的青蛙。

Labyrinthitis is a balance disorder. It is an inflammatory process affecting the labyrinths that house the vestibular system (which sense changes in head position) of the inner ear.

In addition to balance control problems, a labyrinthitis patient may encounter hearing loss and tinnitus. Labyrinthitis is caused by a virus (the herpes virus has been implicated) but it can also arise from bacterial infection, head injury, an allergy or as a reaction to a particular medicine. Both bacterial and viral labyrinthitis can cause permanent hearing loss, although this is rare.

Labyrinthitis often follows an upper respiratory tract infection (URI).

瞎眼青蛙

从今年年初开始迷上游泳，一星期没游上三次，会有轻微的忧郁症，听起来有点夸张，可是思觉失调这件事还真是有的。

认识我很久的人都知道我戴隐型眼镜很多年了，一直以来都没事，得意的很，可说是没隐型眼镜不可活的。报应终于来了，最近不知怎么了，一戴隐型眼镜，眼睛就超不舒服，发红流泪。所以， 我现在是一只瞎眼青蛙.
如果， 你在游泳池看见我，而我没有对你打招呼，是因为我看不见你.

最近， 里的灯常坏，所以我也只可以看见黑黑的影子，隐隐约约可以分辨出男女。
好恐怖哦！

如果有一天，我真的瞎了， 怎么办？那我的世界就没有美与丑，好与坏，我再也不可以看到这世界了。

可是人家说，盲人都是用心去看世界的，是真的吗？ 可是，当你看不见时， 你不会察言观色， 不需要看别人的脸色而活， 说话会比较理直气壮一些。 所以，有眼睛的人们选择在适当的时候当瞎子， 有耳朵的人们选择在适当的时候当聋子， 真的可以为生活减少一些烦恼。 人生也只是一次而已，为什么那么烦恼呢？

兴趣是培养的

兴趣是培养的，对牙齿也是一样的。

五年前，
我拿起针筒，手抖得像parkison disease患者， 然后一直怕会弄疼病人似的，

记得第一次放rubber dam 的时候， 我以为我和rubber dam命中无缘，我可能当不成牙医了。现在，放rubber dam 与打针简直变成家常便饭一样。 你可以想象一天不吃饭吗？ 答案是不行的，不吃饭是会饿死的。

以前总觉得老师们不是人，是神。 跟他们讲话都不敢大声，也不敢驳嘴，老师说一我不敢说二。 岁月让我看清楚真相， 老师其实也只是人，只是他们有丰富的经验当筹码。所以惧怕是不必要的， 适当的尊重已经足够了。

以前觉得读书很难，很烦。 现在觉得有书可以读已经是很辛福了，因为前人已经把他们的说知列出于书上。 我们只是需要阅读，还有比这更简单的事情吗？

以前，我是属于保守派的。每一件事情，都要花很多时间来衡量好坏，叫我做决定真的要提早三天告诉我。 现在，决定也不是做的比别人快，但由于工作课业要求，一定程度的当机立断分析能力还是被培养出来了。

所以，学习的意思并不完全是读书而已，学习本身包涵生活中每一个小细节。 所以说，人生是永不休止的学习路程，活着的没一天都有新的事物可以学习。

云在动

今天在等公车的时候，无聊看看天空，原来云飘动得很快，很美。
－－－这时，我和地球一起转，云围绕着地球转，感觉很平静。

坐上车， 车子开动后， 忽然觉得云不动了。
－－－因为车子动得很快，已经比云快了。这几年的生活都好象在车上的生活，很忙碌，很充实。 但却很少有时间停下来，看四周围的人物与风景。最近， 生活好象比较闲， 可能车站就快到了，这一趟旅程已经快结束了， 车子移动的速度变慢了，所以为开始看到云在动。 心情慢慢的平静下来， 云在告诉我＂是时候想想下一个旅程，要搭那一班车。＂ 可是，云不知道我还没有看到有写我姓名的车。

missing ingredient

Looking for the missing ingredient in my life.....Anyone can help?

家的味道

下雨天，总会有一种湿湿的味道， 像家的味道。

追梦

欣赏与佩服认真工作时的人，因为那是一种追梦的感觉。

最近，身边好多人都在和我谈理想与梦想，可能大家都差不多到那一种年龄了。

在我这年龄，忽然觉得很多以前觉得不可能或者很难的事情，其实并不象我想象中困难。 其实，很多事情在还没有试过前，不要说不可能，它可能真的没有那么难。不要高估事情的难度和低估自己的能力。不过，做任何重大决定前，还是得做一个最坏的打算。 因为如果事情搞砸了，日子还是要过的。

比较

有比较，
才会发现什么人最适合你；
什么化妆品把你的轮廓衬托得最完美，
什么款式的服装穿在你身上可以修饰缺点，突出优点；

有比较，
你可能会发现你拥有的其实是不错的，所以去珍惜它。

所以，请不要替自己的生活画上框框。

收费

如果你觉得专业人士都在骗你的钱， 都觉得收费不合理，那你应该去体验他们成为专业人士之路。

不公平

长的抱歉是不是不可以去当交流学生？
我想是的，世界就是这么不公平，社会也是现实的。
毕竟，世上没有丑女人， 只有懒女人，还有想不开的女人。

平衡的游戏

无论你有多好的计划，还是无可平伏临毕业前，忐忑不安的心。

最近，和已经在工作的朋友聊天， 大家都说在工作的环境很难交到真心的朋友。如果这是真的，就可以解释大人为什么都不怎么开心。 工作的环境比读书的多了许多利害纷争，大家为了生活，家庭等等的需要，也轮不到他们去发挥礼让精神了。

不过，我总觉得，人生所有的事情都是平衡的游戏。
象有些食物多吃很恶心，少吃有很想念；
有些人见多了很烦，没见面又会思念；
有些话说多了就没什么意义，说少了别人又不懂；
好象很多事情都是要适可而止，太多或太少，对大家都没什么好处。

我想，人生就是一场在寻找平衡的游戏；
而经验就是游戏的筹码；
所以没有筹码的时候，
还是乖乖向筹码多的人虚心学习，
这无疑是省时间，省力气的学习管道之一。

Value

How do you determine the value of relationship with
your life partner,
your parent,
your siblings,
your friends,
your colleagues,
your so called "friends",

I think those things that money cannot buy are always more valuable than the other.
Think, priorities and act.

There is no turn back for life, when you did something wrong, deal with that and live on. There is no other choice.

Black Friday 13042007

Seriously, i do not believe in Black friday ever until today.

I am not trying to blame anything, (haha) but i am trying to find an excuse.

I slept in this morning until 12noon, missed my patient appointment, missed tutorial.

Oh my god, how can i ever do such a thing?

But thanks to everyone that has helped me out this morning.
It is thru this unexpected incidence that you realise you have real friends.

Well, i swear, i will not be absent for clinic again, never.

Reciprocal action

What do you do when thing doesn't go your way?
You react, you wait, because the world is round, what goes around comes around.

i was afraid of dentist, now people are afraid of me.

I was afraid of dentist that i didn't turn up at my appointment,
now my patient failed to attend to their appointment.

I just need to deal with the level of frustration........

Tomorrow is a better day.

In the foreign country

Sometimes, you feel helpless,
you feel weak,
you don't know what to do,
You are lost,

Then, you cry,
you run away from sorrow,
but you have no where to hide,

But eventually time will bring away the sorrow,
There are always some support around,
as long as you are willing to ask for help.

Invisible aifen

There is a chinese verse saying "if the needle doesn't prick into your skin, you won't feel the pain". Yes, my patient had 10 carpules of local anaesthetic solution this morning for her full lower teeth clearance. This poor lady can't even swallow and spit water, not to mention about speaking. And, she can't write. This is the time when eye contact and non-verbal communication play their role, i can tell that she feel awful. Yet, i did my best to help her out of her condition, sincerely hope that she can cope with the rest of her life smoothly. There are always things that you can do nothing to help, she just has to live with that.

And then, we were in this super busy out patient clinic that two consultants failed to attend. The only oral surgeon had to see all the patients. Guess what, i just discover my new side kick power, i can make myself invisible. HAHA.. Well, he is too busy to even acknowledge my attendance, may be i should say existence. Oh dear....

There were time that i thought my intelligence level was quite good, but today i hang my washing out at night and let them get wetter with the heavy rain. Yes, i guess i am "smart".

like mum, like daughter

Eventually, i understand the verse

"like mum, like daughter"

This is the real inheritance, probably not so much genetic, more to life style and thinking. Do you believe that?

Hesitation

Hesitation, stubborn and Procrastination lead to a complicated problem with poor prognosis.

Eventhough professionalism is just about inequality in quantity of information, if you do not wish to spend the time that professional has to spend, deal with them, accept their suggestion.

FREE gift

Have you ever got free gift from any commercial dealer or lucky draw or even credit card?Is free gift a common marketing strategy now? Yes, it certainly is. And, you can easily see people go blindly for the promoted item, be it credit card or food, just for the free gift. But i guess no one actually assess the quality of the free gift, to whether they are worth the price and effort.

Personally, i have not believe in free gift anymore.
1) The free "i digital handy cam" that my dad got from one of the credit card company only work for one week before it has broken down. And, apparently none of the camera shop that we go can fix it. So, the 1st free gift is down and dead, lying in one of our cabinets.

2)Many so called "free gift" become garbage when it comes to house cleaning before Chinese New Year.

3)I bought a digital camera recently and the Miss Boss said she would give me this mini tripod as a gift. One of the leg of the tripod just broke when i first use it.

I cannot tell whether these are coincident cases that happened to me Only or there are many other people who had similar experience. Please, do not give me free gift anymore, be practical, give me discount or cash back. :/

~*Sharing is Caring*~

Appreciation

Having a sense of Appreciation is essential in one's life.

Don't take thing for granted.

Appreciate what other people have done for you,

make people feel treasured and thankful.